The Person No One Knows

Finding who I am without following the steps of the world.

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Emily Lara

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The mask that I have been wearing the past few years has created a border between my truths and lies. As my journey continues, I can reveal one side is being colored in light and the other in the dark. But as I try to battle out the truth; I end up where I began.

So I have come to the realization that my mask is the only thing that is keeping me from being myself. To be completely honest with you, I have become naive to the outside world because of it.

Trust me, it did not come to me from one day to another. It was more of a cycle that I had to continue to push. And although I am not where I want to be yet, I have started to build my own path of light. A path of yellow and happiness. The path without sorrow and darkness; and only pure intentions. I used to blend in with the crowd, mix in with the trends, the sayings and the type of people that were obviously loved. I did this to be loved, too.

Truthfully, that was not how I wanted to continue living my life. The missing part I needed was change. And without it I would have not created a new version of myself. The one who is independent, the one who carries her heart on her sleeve and the one who pushes herself to be better each day. I know it is not healthy to never be satisfied, but I believe it only gets you to a greater place.

So, as long as I continue to be myself and my myself only, I can fully say that I am starting to peel off parts of my mask. I no longer hide my identity and most importantly, my world and the outside world are no longer split in two.